that’s my story and i’m sticking to it

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Lots of requests lately to give my perspective on this journey of a lifetime! from the p.o.v. of the caregiver. I have received persistent inquiries from the press here in Goa, too. After much thought I turned down the opportunities for the limelight at this time. I’m just too raw and exhausted and it’s too intimate an experience to share while one is living it.  I know, I know. I write a blog and there’s a lot of personal stuff we’ve already shared here. So what’s the big deal if a reporter wants to ask a few questions?

First off, I’m a bundle of nerves and my emotions are just below the surface waiting to bubble over. As a caregiver, I want to be able to have a safe and private place to retreat to in order to take care of myself and release my feelings privately. Being in a foreign country away from my family and friends means I am isolated and prone to blabbing too much to anyone who will listen. I’d hardly remember what I ate for breakfast  yesterday if it weren’t for the fact that I eat the same damn thing every single day (porridge with apricots, fresh pineapple slices, fresh OJ, two skim milk lattes and some crispy bacon twice a week if I didn’t have dinner the night before).

So I don’t trust myself to talk with a professional about things I haven’t even been able to express to my family and friends yet. Secondly, I have nothing that I am selling right now. The book I intend to write about my experience throughout this trip (and that I am already dreaming the chapters of) will practically write itself when I’m ready. I don’t want to diffuse the energy of that project by giving my story to another writer. Why should I? Scott is taking the journey. I am merely a witness and lover helping to support his creativity, well being, and look after his best interests. He is inspiring me along with others to rethink how we live our lives, right up until the end. It’s not all roses even though he encourages all of you to stop and smell as many as you can find each day. But for now, looking at life through rose-colored glasses is preferable to having to think about the reality of our situation. That’s how I get through the day. One day at a time.

Namaste,

Katy

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Scott at the Taj Majal in November 2012. It was a memorable day to be in love.

15 thoughts on “that’s my story and i’m sticking to it”

  1. Go, Katy. You are doing a wonderful job (not that it’s a “job”). Dig deep to find that reserve of calm and take one day at a time.

    Namaste to you, Nancy

    Sent from my iPhone

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  4. Thanks for sharing your insights too, and your very wise balance and rationale on focusing on the now.

    You are sharing the most beautiful, powerful account of the way Scott uses creativity to bring peace, inspiration and dignity at what is such an intense time.

    Love and strength to you both, and the most respectful “namaste”
    Philippa
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  5. Katy – you are on a shared but different journey and you inspire us all as much as Scott. We think of you often. Andy

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  8. Reblogged this on Feng Shui By Fishgirl and commented:

    This is where I am and why I’m not updating my Feng Shui Blog for the past 8 months. Thank you for following Feng Shui By Fishgirl anyway and keeping my blog alive and well! I will be back eventually. Meanwhile come see Going to Goa Blog on wordpress (where else?) !

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