stranger in a strange land

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Stranger in a Strange Land © Katy Allgeyer

As a new September unfolds, Scott is showing up in my dreams again. In my dreams we are doing normal daily coupledom things. He’s reading the NYT while I prepare breakfast on a Sunday morning. Or we’re getting ready to go out to see a movie together. Sometimes I wake up feeling his strong powerful arms hugging me tight. The Way It Used To Be. Those dreams are  comforting to me as I navigate the foreign territory of  Being Without Him. Acceptance has finally arrived.

Lately I’ve caught glimpses of my future that flash and burn like shooting stars in my mind, quick little snippets of what is to come. I see color and paint and a studio overflowing with new work. I see book signings and meetings with enthusiastic people. I see I can be alive and free and happy again. I see I can Be Here Now.

I am almost ready.

 

5 thoughts on “stranger in a strange land

  1. Lyrics by Todd Rundgren…my all time fave:

    “Love Is The Answer”

    Name your price
    A ticket to paradise
    I can’t stay here any more
    And I’ve looked high and low
    I’ve been from shore to shore to shore
    If there’s a short cut I’d have found it
    But there’s no easy way around it

    Light of the world, shine on me
    Love is the answer
    Shine on us all, set us free
    Love is the answer

    Who knows why
    Someday we all must die
    We’re all homeless boys and girls
    And we are never heard
    It’s such a lonely world
    People turn their heads and walk on by
    Tell me, is it worth just another try?

    Tell me, are we alive, or just a dying planet?
    What are the chances?
    Ask the man in your heart for the answers

    And when you feel afraid, love one another
    When you’ve lost your way, love one another
    When you’re all alone, love one another
    When you’re far from home, love one another
    When you’re down and out, love one another
    All your hopes run out, love one another
    When you need a friend, love one another
    When you’re near the end, love one another
    We got to love one another

    Light of the world, you got to shine
    Love will be a means, yeah, yeah
    Shine on us all
    Know that love can save the day
    Just give it one more chance
    Lord you just cant let it stop lord
    Love is the answer
    Got to be free to let love into your life
    Let it shine

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