there is no need to rush

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Scott’s legs.

Much like the picture above where we only see his legs at the bow of the canoe, I know that Scott is off-camera somewhere, floating as if on the water. I’m floating, too. Each day I feel a little more grounded in reality. But each day also has its moments of feeling the depth of the ocean of sorrow his death left me with.

Has it really been 4 months already? Time has no power when you’re in grief’s limbo land. One minute you are laughing with a friend. The next you realize you haven’t laughed in a long time. Then you remember why not. It takes as long as it takes. I’m getting there gradually, taking my time. There is no need to rush.

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7 thoughts on “there is no need to rush

  1. loved ones that have passed..leave behind sooo much…. but no hourglass/watch…. time will pass and heal with a bandage when it
    feels the need to do so..in the meantime…. we mourn, remember, laugh and cry… as time stands still ….. until…. another time…

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  2. Grief will take its time and in this 24/7 world we live in it challenges us as we navigate our own intimate process. The emptiness in ones heart can never be measured with time. The process is on its own time and if today I only acknowledge that I am learning to surf these waves of grief I am ok.
    Sharing in your sorrow.

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