Stranger in a Strange Land © Katy Allgeyer
As a new September unfolds, Scott is showing up in my dreams again. In my dreams we are doing normal daily coupledom things. He’s reading the NYT while I prepare breakfast on a Sunday morning. Or we’re getting ready to go out to see a movie together. Sometimes I wake up feeling his strong powerful arms hugging me tight. The Way It Used To Be. Those dreams are comforting to me as I navigate the foreign territory of Being Without Him. Acceptance has finally arrived.
Lately I’ve caught glimpses of my future that flash and burn like shooting stars in my mind, quick little snippets of what is to come. I see color and paint and a studio overflowing with new work. I see book signings and meetings with enthusiastic people. I see I can be alive and free and happy again. I see I can Be Here Now.
I am almost ready.