I feel like a child again. Learning how to breathe, to paint, to laugh. Taking baby steps toward Life Without Scott. Trying to keep the wonder and magic and compassion and love alive. Managing to finally break free of my daily sugar habit that kept me comfortably numb for that last couple of years.

I’m not sure if I blogged about this already “Comfortably Numb” by Pink Floyd will definitely be part of the soundtrack to my Going To Goa movie if it ever gets made. There were days when the boys behind the Goa Marriott poolside bar would play this song on a loop repeatedly for hours. I was never a big fan of Pink Floyd but the synchronicity of this song was too poignant to miss. Maybe you had to be there. It’s a song that instantly transports me back to swimming in the pool while the warm monsoon rain lashes the water’s surface, all the while worrying if I leave Scott’s side for half an hour will I regret it later?

I feel like a butterfly that dreamed of being an elephant. Or an elephant that dreamed of being a butterfly. Every Day Is A Good Day. Isn’t it?