3 months later

It happened 3 months ago. Three months that passed without my permission, three months of holding my breath underwater, three months of living without Scott to have and to hold. We are getting on, Hershey, Loolie and I. The distant vibrancy of Goa permeates my soul, somewhat inoculating me against the drabness of winter setting in here at home. My two dogs require that I get up each day to face that chill air. Scott’s deep warm voice in my heart demands that I find a reason to smile at least once every 24 hours, reminds me to embrace Luca’s motto that Every Day Is A Good Day. Every day has to be a good day. Otherwise what is it all for, right? We have this day and nothing more. This day will not ask my permission to start or to end.

Jimi Hendrix was a fave of Scott’s and we listened to his music often. The butterflies keep on coming…I hope they always do.


Well she’s walking through the clouds
With a circus mind that’s running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That’s all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I’m sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It’s alright she says it’s alright
Take anything you want from me,

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

written by Young & Christopher

6 thoughts on “3 months later

  1. Hi Katy,

    I’m not sure how any of Scott’s and your friends respond to all the posts we all have been receiving over the long past months. For me personally I don’t allow myself to read them all. Lynda and me have been together for over 40 years and I just can’t imagine what you are going through. Every time I read the blog it just breaks my heart. The love you both brought and bring to every one is a gift that keeps on giving.


    On Wed, Dec 11, 2013 at 10:01 AM, going to goa


    • Dear Gene,
      Heartbreak is one way to open your heart chakra, isn’t it? We all come into this world with an Open Heart then we put up walls and compartments to protect ourselves from getting hurt…feeling pain sucks. But LOVE is worth it. Love is all there is. The rest is bullsh*t. You are lucky you and Lynda have what you have and congratulations on 40 years. Love each other, appreciate each day. And thank you so very much for sharing your thoughts with us on this blog. Your feedback is much appreciated.


  2. Thought of u when my son sent this to me…

    If you’re ever goin to Me. You’re alway welcome to crash at our place on the way up. We’re right next to Mystic, Ct.

    Take care,



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