Sometimes I feel that ‘getting over it’ and moving on is moving away from Scott and my life with him. This feeling brings up more grief because if I am completely honest with myself I realize that I don’t want to let him go. I think maybe he is watching me from The Other Side and now that I am painting again he may think he has permission to leave me and go on his way jet-setting around the universe at the speed of light. I did this 20″ x 20″ painting of our Deer Isle-Sedgwick bridge to where our life together began in Maine. I’m hoping that Scott sees it and recognizes this as a bridge to return to me in my dreams anytime.