what do. i. do
this. is. to. put. down a. day in my. life in goa. from waking up. to. next. morning
when. the. birds. outside. my door near. the. bay, sing. me. a sweet song. around. five am ,they. dont. know. if. up or asleep.
when. i. get. up. ,rarely. out of. bed. till 730-830 if. i go to breakfast. via. my trusty wheelchair
at. first wake i am in total darkness, all my needs. within reach: iPad,art supplies. five. pair. eyeglasses,pills. water. protein shake, computer. mouse. n sound. mixer. for. volume
feeling. like. a. ninety yr. old. have a habit wanting. everything in its place. close. and. in same location,funny. notice. any. thing. diff even if. a. pen is. in new place,my. eyes. open. and. im happy to. be. alive. i sometimes check e. mailz or read. a nytimes ,la. times , wash. post. art newspaper ,katys. blog. before doing. most. anything. else,i excersise my. legs. torso leg. lifts
watch. cnn news. and. wait. for. katys. appearance,she. could. be. right next to me asleep from watching. movie. late,like. we. did. last. night. ,saw. …Kim 1951,errol flynn,dean stockwell plays. young. kim,great. movie. about india 1850 s. very. well done. w. super. cast. and. visuals.
by. 9 .30 im. with katy. at. brkfst. room on bay with. nice. view. usually table no.12
one of. my roullette. numbers ,we. eat,having eggs. pineapple banana, crispy bacon, milk,for me
little. bits. of. all,like. bird….
we. read. three local. newspapers,goa. n area
chk big. screen movie theatre. selection five. min. cab,then. wheel me outside. for. fifteen min. stroll up. down beach front. thru. pool area. to a. sea. wall. sit. for. awhile,not 100 tdy. maybe in 80s
then its up. to. lobby,open. to. elements. high ceiling. large open. space,great breeze. which. get. rolling in. two. three hours,i. set. up. watercolors at end of. 25 ft. marble. table. w. five. huge vases. w. four. ft. flowers. poking. out. top,my. spot. is. always. there. and. nice. in am. good
light. roomy,i. sit. n do a few. paintings,w. 2-8 people. looking. over. shoulder. rarely. saying. anything but. peeking. at. what i. doing,katy. sit. reads. white hotel sheet condensed. nyt..usa. tdy. and an international edition. maybe. 10. pages. ,has. all top stories……then if. windy. i. move. into aZur cafe 100 ft. away in a/c. room. like. fridge,while. lobby. is. now. like. an oven
do. some. more. art. look at i pad. email. check furniture news, la. times. again,have juice
they. always. bring. me. water. three glasses,one to drink, one for. paints one to wash. brushes
maybe. one. nurse. of. ours. shows up at 1:30 pm and i head. back to room,have an hour. massage very. head to toe. never on back. cant. roll over,tailbone and ribs. poke. right thru,then. maybe. cnn ,tel. calls,e mail,write. something. maybe. song. or. scribble,then sleep. if can. for. one hour. plus
mid. afternoon. put. on. amazon,netflix. look for. movie, art movie,saw. vic munoz. garbage. to. art. amazing. documentary about brazil landfill making. art. showing. selling. giving. bk to. commmunity
fab. idea,maybe. then old. movie. capt.blood,james. bond,skyfall,ken burns. documentry
then. look at. tv,talk. with katy… sanjiv. in. delhi. always. calls. hit. pipe if. feel. oooky
all day. on. narco. drugs. fentynol patch. ,dilauded,morphine. small pills. for. stomach. which. is. constantly hurting. tightens. up. inside. like. knots. all where operation. was four years ago. and. quite. uncomfortable. all. the time. for. last. three weeks,big. paain under. control had. visit 8 pm. from. pain doctor. discussed. diet. pill intake,relationship. patch. strength to my. new. lite. weight. me,hvnt. been on scale. but. guessing120. or less,,,fading. away
dinner. usually every other. night same. w brkfst. sometimes i. dont. eat. at all except. milkshakes,w. protein,any. plumbing. very. very. tuff,can. be. over. five. hours. to get. almost. normal quite painful. during. actual. push thru….i .could. pass out. from exhaustion …whew
nite. time. tv. movies. sketch.art,take. sleeping. pill almost. every. night just. one. could take. more. dont…my night dreams are always. out. of this world. the. opiates create. strange images. usually. lost. looking. for. car or. luggage. or. in strange. homes. or. parties. full strangers,never. am i sick. or. in wheelchair in my dreams…..just one time in last four. months,
i. think. all day. about. friends. n family. and. events. watching. slide. shows on. computer screen. showing. hundreds. images of. everything n everyone,including. maine. and. high point trips. to. europe, india. places. etc,my. mind. floats. all over the place,i get very. emotional. when. reading. e mail with real content about. real. events. that people. are. going. thru.
i. look at. my. art that i’ve done often and. other. artists’. work and. spend. many. hours thinking. about. my. own. situation: will it. change. ,wondering. why. i’ve survived. so. long. and. how. happy. i am to. be. here. now seeing. the. sunsets. and. sunrises,hearing. from. anyone on tel. is. great. e. mails. i. love to receive…. looking. at. comments and sending. out. to. different friends the interesting. articles. i see. is. a. joy! life. is. good. and. 24. hours is. melting. day into. day
up. a. lot. and. alert mostly…. painfree,kinda. and. spirits. 99 percent. great. my. days. continue. to. make. me want to. be. alive. ………….and. i. am six. months –two weeks away–
we. have to. renew our. visas… doing that now
.our good friend abu. arrives any. day. now from. pakistan and usa
really. excited,luca. said. he. might. come. from. italy. again,,rohan. marley. maybe. april, he. said
scott. sending. hugz. n love. from. my 24. hour routine day……..